Prison Sex

Much has happened since I've last blogged, but the essentials are still the same. I'm still working midnights 6 nights a week, I'm still incredibly lonely, and I'm not sure if I'm depressed or not. But I guess that gives me something to figure out. It gives me something to aspire to finding an answer about. You know how some people find out they're dying so they have to try and find out their answers before they go? You know, answers about their questions in life, whatever they may be. Mine would be about whether or not I've been depressed. I can't think of another question that has been bugging me for so long. I've just had my last weekend where I have more then one night off until christmas time. That's a 9 or 10 week stretch where I don't get a weekend to waste. That's the longest stretch I've had all year. I guess that's a good thing as it gives me a chance to make enough money to enjoy myself more over the christmas break, as I'm going to New York City for the Time Square new year celebration.

That`s not the only fun thing I will have done this year either, as I actually drove to the East Coast during my summer shutdown and spent a bit over a week between New Brunswick, Nova Scotia and PEI, and I didn`t decide I was going until a week before I went. There`s nothing like spending a week on vacation by yourself. Considering I haven`t travelled anywhere in years, or had a proper vacation, really ever, it wasn`t as awkward as I was expecting it to be. It took a couple of days to get used to travelling alone, but once I got accustomed to it, it actually was really fun. It help`s when the area is beautiful. But I couldn`t help but often think how much better it would`ve been with somebody cool to experience it with. It`s almost like I never went as I have no one to talk about it with, and my memory is so poor that I`m sure I`ll forget most of it. At least I`m going to New York with people, so I can compare a lonely vacation with a vacation with friends. By the way, fall is amazing.